I'm beginning to believe that Pittsburgh is a real possibility. However, I have so little money that my plans could unravel as soon as tomorrow. Maybe I can pay $80 for my ticket to Washington DC but cannot afford the train from Washington to Pennsylvania. Maybe my sublet in Pittsburgh falls through, and I can't secure another one that is within my budget. There are other surprise glitches which could arise, making it so I am unable to temporarily relocate for my grant writing internship.
However, as June whizzes towards its end, I'm optimistic. It's been a full and productive month and, if Pittsburgh doesn't happen because I can't financially swing it, at least I know the professional door to grant writing is opening up for me - even if I have to intern here in Greater Boston / Cambridge.
At the moment, my pre-Pittsburgh budget looks like this:
- Payday, 1 July 2015, pay $20 to Ellen for our cable bill.
- Same day, 1 July, give my lovely landlord $400 for rent.
- Next payday, 15 July 2015, train tickets for Pittsburgh!
In the meantime, I'm really hoping (with all my might) that nothing fucks with this budget.
Because, without maturely rationalizing and putting on my "everything is ok" mask, I'd enjoy a short adventure to Pittsburgh. I really want to go. In the meantime, I must stay focused on the logistics.
|I'll be spending the rest of June reading this monster novel.|
I'm signing off for the rest of June. I'll spend the next few days reading House of Leaves, the 700-page novel by Mark Z. Danielewski. If I don't commit to this book, it ain't gonna happen. So instead of writing, I will be reading. ...Life is all about choices, isn't it? Budgetary choices of time and money.
|Most of the novel's pages are formatted in funky ways, like this one.|
Amazingly, the entire book is > online here < if you're also interested in reading this horror story.
In a faceless monitor-to-monitor sense,
I sorta love you and your readership.
Ta and I'll be thinking of ya, dearest.